Say hi to y'motha for me.

And truth be told I miss you, and truth be told I'm lyin'

All Hail The Heartbreaker

I had the notion that you'd make me change my ways
My bad habits would be gone in a matter of days
I had the feeling that you'd open up my eyes
To a whole new world that had since been in disguise

But that day will most likely never come for me
And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck
To everything you are

So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures
And overanalyze your words
But the truth is that I've never fallen so hard
It's taking everything in me
Just to forget your sweater so far

I had the notion that you'd make me forget the world
But your undecisive mind shows me that
You are "just another girl"
I had the feeling that those looks you gave me were real
What if I ripped your heart apart at the seams
Maybe then you'd know how I feel

But that day will most likely never come for me
And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck
To everything you are

So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures
And overanalyze your words
But the truth is that I've never fallen so hard
It's taking everything in me
Just to forget your sweater so far

I can honestly say
That I never, ever, ever felt this way
Your lips, your eyelashes, your skin
These are the parts of your body
That cause my comatose to begin

I can honestly say
That I never, ever, ever felt this way
Your lips, your eyelashes, your skin
These are the parts of your body
That cause my comatose to begin

I will sleep another day
I don't really need to anyway
What's the point when my dreams are infected
With words you used to say
I will breathe in a moment
As long as I keep my distance
I wouldn't want to go messing anything up

So don't go worrying about me
It's not like I think about you constantly
So maybe I do, but that shouldn't affect
Your life anymore
I knew it the moment you walked into the door

So don't go worrying about me
It's not like I think about this constantly
So maybe I do, but that shouldn't affect
Your life anymore
I knew it the moment you walked into the door

I'll let you get the best of me
Because there's nothing else that I do well
I'll let you get the best of me
Because there's nothing else that I do well
I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker
I guess that's how this one's gonna go I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker
You've got me down on my knees and I proclaim
All hail the heartbreaker

Suck It Up, Princess.

Eight months it's been over now.
But over just can't be allowed.
You thought the score was settled
But you're lonely.
Things weren't getting better
The phone call I remember.
Dialing 9-1-1 was the next call I made.

Our time is gone, it's long gone.
And I've learned to let you go.

Do you want to beat, want to beat me to it?
Do you want to beat, want to beat me to it?
I feel like you do, tonight.
Do you want to beat, want to beat me to it?
Do you want to beat, want to beat me to it?
I feel like you do, tonight.

Another man just would give in,
But I won't take you back again.
You never thought you'd beg
But you're lonely.
Desperate conversation
Sexual connotation.
My body won't convince my mind to breakdown.

Our time is gone, it's long gone.
And I've learned to let you go.

Do you want to beat, want to beat me to it?
Do you want to beat, want to beat me to it?
I feel like you do, tonight.
Do you want to beat, want to beat me to it?
Do you want to beat, want to beat me to it?
I feel like you do, tonight.

The last is approaching,
The bar is nearly empty.
I catch a longing glance from you;
It all comes down to this.
I'd rather leave alone tonight
Than let you back into my life.
Well you started mine,
But over time
I've learned to let you go.
Go. Just go.
Just go...

Eight months over now.
Over just can't be allowed.
The score was settled
But you're lonely.
Desperate conversation
Sexual connotation.
My body won't convince my mind to breakdown.

You said you never really loved me.
You said you're better off without me.
You said you'd know you never miss me,
But baby, who's alone?

Do you want to beat, want to beat me to it?
Do you want to beat, want to beat me to it?
I feel like you do
Our time is gone, it's long gone.
Our time is gone, it's long gone.
Our time is gone, it's long gone.
And I have learned to live, and let you go.

I know, you think thats its impossible, I felt the same, but I said it for the first time anyway.

So I'm FINALLY on reading week ! CHYEA.
Super stoked on this. AAAAND, the new Jason movie comes out today, fuck yeah seakings. Thats about all thats happened lately. Its been a pretty brutes week, and seemed like it went on forever.

I miss you.

We had to put down one of our dogs today. The small one, Mickey.
His kidneys have apparently been failing over the past years, but they didn't think to check for it, so today they pretty much gave the fuck out. The machine couldn't even read how badly they were damaged, because it was so much. I stayed in the room while they put him to sleep. :(

On another note, a week from today, will be a year since we put my cat to sleep.

Fuck.my.life.

xo
♥

Sometimes I hate being a female

We over-analyze things way too much.

Toronto

What if this is my great Alaskan adventure? and I'm missing it. Not going, could be forever a regret. I guess we'll see how this plays out.

Here's To The Night.

In half an hour it will be Feb.3, another day closer to reading week, and more time being stuck here. I'm sort of, tempted to just hop on a plane to Toronto, and leave my parents a note. I'm 18, and it feels like I'm not allowed to do anything. I've pretty much never gone against what my dad has said, 18 years of always listening to what he says, for once I kind of just want to throw his rules out the window, buy plane tickets, and go. We'll see what happens.

xo
♥